Monday, 25 May 2015

More Mutton. Less Mum.

Today I went "up town". I was child free. I was alone. No Mum bag and I like to think if I had hidden my wedding ring? I could have been classed as a cool, hip and trendy single lady. Ala Beyonce. No-one could have noticed that I had been up all night with a poorly tiny son. And OK yeah I had a rain coat with me, you know just in case, but bar that? I was Swifty's older, bustier, sister.

There has been a change of events recently. I'm not sure if it's because those baby days are long behind me and it is possible to get at least a few nights sleep in a row. But I have started to feel a bit more me. However the me that I feel? Is the me before mortgages, marriage and kiddos. Worryingly? I am feeling mid 20's. However? My body is not. I found myself roaming Miss Selfridges trying to work out if I could fit into a super short playsuit without my privates hanging out the bottom. If I would suit a floral crown at 37 and how many pairs of jelly shoes did I need to carry me through the summer.

My ripped jeans. Like the youth.

I can't quite come to terms that I am no longer youth. It's not quite sunk in. There are small tell tale signs such as me being invited to a night out this evening and I honestly would prefer being in my pyjamas with a Malibu and caffeine free diet coke (I can't drink caffeine after 4pm. My pushing 40 body can't cope). I always have a brolly. And I enjoy a slipper more than is reasonable. But with regards to clothes? I still can't quite accept that I am not the same age as the cast of Hollyoaks.

My floral headbands. Like the youth. 

Recently I've brought several pairs of ripped jeans. Like the youth. I own high tops. Like the youth. And my nails are painted a very bright shade of orange. Like the youth. I still can't get my head around the fact that I produced two small people. I think I would seamlessly fit into a trendy night club (the fact I used the word 'trendy'? Proves I would not). But. The REALLY great thing about being a Mum in your late 30s? Is that to be honest? I couldn't give a sh*t.

My perspective has changed. Sure I would heart to be a size 12 and it would be amazing to squeeze even one boob into a Top Shop crop top. But the reality is? I can't. So? I'm going to embrace the bits of youth that still do sit well on the ravaged body of this lady who can't cope with caffeine and enjoys reality TV a little bit too much. 18 year olds may see me as a fruit loop in a floral crown (much like we mocked those 'old people' dancing in The Ritzy when we were young. Bet they were only late 20s. Sob).  But one day it will be their turn. And they will be thinking "Jesus. Is the Bomber Jacket back again?". Just like us.

I wore you in 1994...the youth can have this one.

20 comments:

  1. Oh love, this has made me chuckle and also feel ancient. Mainly because (as you know) my uniform of Cath Kidston dresses puts me firmly in the LATE 30s camp. I AM PRACTICALLY LATE 20s. Sob. Note to self, must go and buy something totes inappropes v soon. PS. Still laughing about your bits hanging out of a playsuit. HAHAHA!

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  2. Oh you clever lady you are so spot on. I hadn't even realised how much I think I am in my 20s when I get dressed. I reckon you keep wearing that floral crown lovely - like you say, we're at the age where we don't give a sh*t. And we look better for it! (I'm sure...!) xx

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  3. Oh you do make me laugh! You go girl!! Xx

    Abigail Bryony | www.lilymaeadventures.com

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  4. The thing is though at 47 I still haven't figured out how to dress according to my age, although I have one firm rule, if my 12 yo daughter wears a trend than I shouldn't, ha, ha

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    1. I would say this is a marvellous rule!! x

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  5. This really made me laugh! Wear what you like! I bet it looks great! I'm loving the floral crown and ripped jeans trend!

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    1. I LOOK AMAZING! (husband laughs at my floral head band the sod) x

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  6. I'm 28 and still dress like a uni student. I might grow up one day. Maybe. I listened to my SILs dress choice the other night purely because she's 18 and actually looks good in topshop clothes - genuinely thought that was a myth.

    Since becoming a mum I often have issues trying to figure out how to dress myself.

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    1. Same here! I generally find pyjamas the best option ;) x

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  7. I owned a bomber jacket that was a khaki colour lol! wow that brings back memories! The amount of clothes i walk past sighing thinking - if i was younger i'd get away with wearing that. I am trying to find my style again xx

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    1. One day? We will look like MODELS! x

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  8. Im nearly 30 and honestly still feel like I'm 19. I look at my house, my husband, my child, my sensible car and my fairly sensible wardrobe (although I still can't resist a good uni hoody and pj bottoms combo like in my uni days) and wonder what on earth happened!! It's so strange and still boggles my mind really!! Oh yes, I rocked the bomber jacket too, won't be grabbing that back any time soon though!!

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    1. I had a black one with orange inside. I looked SO COOL! Ahem xxx

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  9. I still feel 19. I hear ya x

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  10. It's cool, I'm 21 and expecting my first child, my wardrobe sucks and is largely a jump back to the 90s. I'm not cool, but I am ok with that

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  11. I feel the same I'm 34 but I forget sometimes and am then surprised when certain fashions don't look right. I have recently rediscovered the joy of clothes shopping for myself instead of the kids and have fell in love with some denim wedges like I had in the 90's just need to work out if i can run after a 6 year old in them and push a pram! Have fun rediscovering yourself and style if you feel great in it then you will look fabulous :-) xx

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