Wednesday, 9 December 2015

Now You Are Five...

Dear my beautiful little girl

Today you turned five. Five! Today you became a proper little girl. When you were four I kidded myself that you were still a toddler even though you ran into school each morning with a grin and a skip. In my head you were still a tot but at five? I can't fool myself anymore. You? Are growing up.

There are no more naps in the afternoon where I come and watch you or lie next to you and sniff you sweaty forehead. Nights where you awake calling for me are rare and I never hear the thud of feet running down the corridor to jump into my bed and have a cuddle in the small hours.

Mornings are rushed, you have set an office up in your bedroom and your main aim is to produce as many love notes as humanly possible to me. 'Emma'. 'I love Emma'. 'Erin loves Emma'. 'Emma is boss'. 'Emma is Mummy'. 'I love Mummy'. I like to think it is because I am your total and utter number one. But in reality? Stephen is too hard to spell. I have drawers full of these notes and often look at them when you are at school.


You no longer smell like a baby. You smell like a little girl. You come home full of fish fingers and mash. Sometimes you have felt on your cheeks or paint in your hair. There's no struggle over what outfits you want to wear as you have your style and I have just caved in and gone with it. Your legs are so long you're wearing tights two sizes too big and despite still playing with Disney Princesses, CBeebies now is totally off your radar.

I miss you being a baby. I miss your cuddles and afternoons lying in bed. When you are school I wonder if you think of me. Or miss me. But I am pleased to say? I don't think you do. Whilst I wish you longed for me, I know you are happy in the presence of your new friends and learning. Your teacher says you are doing so well and I couldn't be prouder.

So whilst I miss my crazy little toddler, it's a pleasure to have you in my life as my lovely little girl. Whilst afternoon naps are gone. Sleepovers are in. We giggle whilst watching films about talking dogs and you ask me questions about everything and anything. Some I would rather not answer...just yet. My little tot has gone but my dear girl you will always be my baby.

Love Mummy xxx

16 comments:

  1. This brought tears to my eyes. My baby will be 5 in May so I can definitely relate xx

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  2. Moved me to tears...I can so relate :(

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  3. Aww! Aww How lovely! I hope she has had a fab day x

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  4. I'm all sniffly now! My baby girl turned 6 in October - I could believe it! I wrote a (bad) poem! This is beautiful - I empathise with every word! ��Xxx

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  5. My baby is 5 in January. He doesn't cuddle me as much as he use to. And everything about poo and farts is now funny. There are a lot of questions, about numbers and what letters things start with. There are new friends I haven't pre-approved. But when he does sit still and snuggle in, it is glorious. I'm glad I was able to take the time and cuddle him so much whilst he was little because time is sure flying past now. xx

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    1. We have lots of poo and fart jokes here! I make sure I give my youngest extra cuddles! x

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  6. Beautiful, Emma. Kara's not yet four but Isaac has just turned eight and Toby's six next month. It's scary how fast they grow up and how far they've come, isn't it? For all that I miss the charm of their younger days (and don't miss the nappies and the naps and the toddler tantrums), it's amazing to see them racing forwards.

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    1. Ah thanks! It is so amazing! I can't believe some of the stuff that comes out of my girls mouth! It is brilliant! x

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  7. What a lovely post. My 'baby' will be 10 in March, and sometimes I have to do a double take when I realise how big she is, but she's still my baby!

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  8. Oh Emma this is lovely! She's adorable, through and through. The love notes.....treasure them forever, you'll be getting them out of the drawer every day when she's a teenager! x x

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