I spent the first year of my son's life willing him to sit up (so he could watch Peppa, I could wash up and look after his troublesome toddler sister), willing him to eat proper food (so the two of them could be fed at the same time) and willing him to walk (shopping, a toddler and a baby is IMPOSSIBLE to get from the car to the house in one go in the pouring rain). I wanted time to pass quickly, to hurry up, to get a move on. Now? I just want it to stop.
At two you can still squeeze your child into a babygro. You can shout "have you got the baby bag?" to your other half as you run out of the door to softplay. Two year olds still have a nap, with rose bud lips and a sweaty bed head. They scream when you leave the room with fear of you being gone forever. Three year olds? They wear 'big boy' Spiderman pyjamas, naps are ten minutes in the car which for some reason makes them horrific human beings and when you leave the room? They are more than likely going to draw on the furniture or punch the dog.
Three year olds start pre-school. Three year olds are very close to four year olds. And four year olds? Go to school. Like actual school where they learn to read and write n s*it. Whilst wrapping presents I had visions of his little legs in school shorts. Him being in nativities and not next to my side wanting a cuddle at all times. It's just zooming by so fast. "SOON HE WILL BE GETTING MARRIED!" I wept to my bemused other half while he tried to work out how to wrap a Thor hammer*.
I went to bed early (OK I was being a tad dramatic) but I wonder when will birthdays become celebrations? At what point will I let go of the baby years and start to think of a future without pull ups, sippy cups, tantrums and tears? Will I still be wrapping presents and weeping when they turn 18? Or at some point do we just get on with it and accept the inevitable? For now I will stare at his baby photos with a gulp in my throat and make sure that the next 18 months I soak up every minute of every day with my boy. Well bar the bits where he is mad and screaming about having chocolate for his tea. Those bits I will gloss over with lovely smiling images in my mind.
*Thor Hammers is a ridiculous present for a three year old. Don't say I didn't warn you.
You can stay with me right here forever (bar the bits when you go mad)