Thursday, 20 October 2016

The Absent Mum - A Little Life Update

I have tried to write this blog post about five times and each one was more depressing and mopey than the previous one. So I am going to try again and endeavour to be as positive as possible. As many of you know four weeks ago I trapped a nerve in my back. Yes in a 'hilarious mother trying to twerk' incident. So for nearly a month I have been confined to the house. For over two weeks my bed. I dramatically went to the hospital, wet my bed and have been to the doctors more than I care to remember. It's been sh*t. Like proper sh*t. And the situation doesn't appear to be changing anytime soon.

They don't half train them young nowadays

The worst of times have been missing doing school runs and nursery drop offs. Not being able to go to the harvest festival or the first Year One parents evening. My three year old son worries that if there was a fire I wouldn't be able to escape from the house. Yeah that nearly killed me when he said that. Some days I am on my own from 7:30am - 6pm. It's really lonely. I am a creature of insanity so sometimes my mind has wondered down avenues that I don't want them to go down. There has been much weeping and frustration.

But there has been positives. I have been a captive audience for my two children. My girl has sat next to me to do her homework and my boy has cuddled me in bed watching YouTube. My in laws have stepped in to care for my beauties before and after school and my parents have been around to take me to the doctors. My husband has shown that he is the most spectacular father. He has taken over the household duties and sadly for him now I know he can do it? He will be doing them forever more.

Showing me her star award in my bed. SHE ROCKS

I have been thankful during this time to my beloved blog and YouTube channel. It's given me something to do from the confines of my bed. Replying to comments and engaging with readers and viewers has kept me from totally spiralling. Despite most of my social media updates coming from my bed or living room no-one has said "JESUS DON'T YOU EVER CHANGE THOSE SHEETS?". It's forced me to put a clean top on now and then and brush my hair. The gifts and cards I have received from my friends I have met through blogging has often made me cry.

What some of you don't know is that I went through all of this when I was 18. And it got so bad that I ended up in a wheelchair before I had an operation and today I found myself looking into hiring one again. So I can be part of the family. In a few weeks my dreams have come true. I've been asked to interview the lady that inspired me to start my blog, live on stage at the Mumsnet Blogging conference. And it looks like I might be doing it on wheels or rocking my pimp stick. And I don't know what I think about this? I really don't. I know in time I will get better, I know that this is just a blip and I know there are people that have it a lot worse than me. And that really I am very lucky.

One of the many blurred bed selfies I now own

So that is my little life update. At the moment I am the absent mum. Next week I am going to stay at my parents house with my children so I can spend time with them. We have a few trips out planned and I will struggle along with my stick and watch from the sidelines. I have bought us matching Halloween jumpers to wear even if we are sat in the house watching spooky movies. I will keep you updated and I can only apologise that you've seen the inside of my bedroom more than my husband has recently (he has to sleep with my son). Normal service will resume soon. I hope. Fingers crossed eh.

*Thanks for any advice you may offer but I have been advised to wait for an MRI until I do any other treatments*
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18 comments

  1. I love reading your blog. You are so refreshing that even when things are crap and sad, your posts still crack me up. I hope things start to look up for you xx

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  2. I know the feeling, slipped 2 discs in my back causing a trapped nerve all down my right leg, suffered with it for over 2 years so I hope it all improves for you asap!

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  3. Much love Em. You'll kill it at Blogfest xxx

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  4. Wow, you make life in terrible pain look downright fun! Love your little doc too! I do hope you feel better soon. As someone who has had many back/neck surgeries and issues, I have a great deal of empathy for you and your family and I am sending gentle hugs! Feel better soon!

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  5. I know I can't do anything for you, but I can send my love and some extra huge hugs and I'm sending them both through cyberspace right now, thinking of you. I understand how crap it is to be in pain and housebound and I want you to know that finding your channel, blog, social media has been a real tonic for me, you make me smile when I really don't feel like doing, you're wonderful and I will be eternally grateful to my gorgeous friend Emma (it's Em channel) for saying to me on one of our 2 hour Skype chats one evening "I've found a great you tuber, you'll love her, she is right up our street" and she was right, I do love you, so even though you feel crap and life is crap right now, you have brought so much happiness to my dull life and I wanted you to know that :) lots of love xxx

    Zoe ♥ MammafulZo

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  6. One of things I love about your blogs, vlogs and fb posts is the 'warts an all' way they come across, you have no airs and graces and for that I commend you - keep keeping it real. I really hope you get better soon xxx

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  7. Well done for staying so positive. I hope it eases of for you soon. It can't be nice not being able to do things for the kids. I hope you all have a great half term. Xxx ps I saw a Halloween t-shirt in primark it said twerk or treat - I thought of you! X

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  8. God love you x well done you for keeping your chin up. You'll be fab at blogfest - just decided today that I'm coming as looking forward to seeing you up there. One of the ones that inspired me to start blogging x thank you x

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  9. God love you x well done you for keeping your chin up. You'll be fab at blogfest - just decided today that I'm coming as looking forward to seeing you up there. One of the ones that inspired me to start blogging x thank you x

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  10. This is the first entry of your blog I have ever read and wanted to say something in response. I fell from scaffolding the day of the graduation and fractured 3 vertebrae. I trapped a nerve and couldn't walk due to no sensation in my right leg. It took well over 18 months to gain some sort of control of my limb and I have suffered back pain and other symptoms ever since. I too struggle to be the mum who can run around after my son. Hearing your frustrations yet feeling your positivity has touched a cord with me. Thank you for sharing. I don't feel quite so alone anymore

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  11. Sending lots of positive vibes your way. I know that does f%*k all to help. But as someone who's been on bed rest over the years due to various back issues I can sympathise with how lonely it is. I really hope it starts to improve for you.

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  12. Just started reading your blogs, utube channel and Instagram post. I have back problem but not to the extent of yours and it can be the most painful but more frustrating and infuriating things to happen. Anything can trigger it off, I bent over to pick up soap in the shower!!! Any way wanted to say love running in your funny engaging and quite inspirational and so deserved the awards you won. My favourites are being nosey, stationary (I quite like smiggle and the works) and any hauls xx

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  13. Eek! That must be so tough. So pleased to hear you have the support of your parents, inlaws and husband with all of this. Hope the MRI picks up something that can get sorted fairly easily. X

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  14. You crack me up! Saying all the things I think but feel I can't say aloud. Big hugs and hope you feel better soon xx

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  15. Gah - well done writing such a difficult post. I hope you're soon feeling better - especially rather selfishly as I'm coming to Mumsnet blogfest and hope to see you there (in a non stalker ish manner). Tough times, keep on keeping on! I hope you are still able to drink gin, fingers crossed for that one! xx

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  16. I've been thinking - I must pop by BrumMumof2's blog to see how things are going and am sorry to read that your still in agony....and that's awful what you went through when you were 18. Lots of love xx

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  17. Oh bless you honey, you have really suffered the past few months, and glad your blog and good old social media has kept you going. Really hope you get back to normal pretty soon hun, just no more twerking. Hugs xx

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