You are 5 and you are the most wonderful creature. You have endless legs that I have no clue where they have come from and the most beautiful, wonderful clear skin. Sometimes you look like a porcelain doll. Recently you've been a bit worried about as one of your teeth has fallen out so your big cheesy grin is not quite so big and cheesy. But you needn't worry. You're gorgeous. And I'm here to say you will always be gorgeous.
Recently Mummy has been a bit poorly and can't quite get around as much as she is used to. It's nothing too serious and hopefully you will never remember the time she couldn't take you on the school run or whizz you up to Rainbows in the car. It is just a blip. But whilst all this is going on it has taught Mummy something important. It truly matters not what you look like. Just that everything works. There will be times in your life when you're not just worried about a cute missing tooth. You might think your belly is too big. Or your nose too long.
I want to eat you for my tea
You may worry that someone else is prettier than you. Is thinner that you. It's normal and Mummy has had those times too where she wished she was petite and didn't quite enjoy tucking into cake quite so much. But these weeks in bed, when I have been lying here and crying, waking up in the middle of the night and wishing things were different all I have wanted to do? Is get you up, get us all dressed and go to the park and kick leaves around with your crazy brother and laugh and laugh and laugh. That's it.
I haven't wanted to jump out of bed and be a gorgeous size 10. I haven't wanted to look in the mirror and see a smaller nose. All I've wanted to do is to work again. For you. To be the best I can be for you. Your body does not define you. You can still laugh whether you are a size 6 or a size 26. You can still love if your boobs are big or tiny. And whilst at some times you feel the way you look defines you I can promise you it doesn't. There is room for everyone no matter what size or shape or colour.
Still laughing when my legs are dimpled and my belly is big!
You are perfect. Forever perfect to me. I can promise that you will have some horrible fashion mistakes that will make me go "GOOD GOD". But that's what being a Mum is, not quite understanding what their teenage daughter wears. However regardless of however you look? I will always be here just wanting to shove you in the car and go and kick leaves around the park whilst we scream with laughter.