Monday, 11 June 2018

You'll ALWAYS Be My Little Girl

To my beautiful girl

You are currently seven and a half. Your feet are close to a size two grown up size. Your front teeth look a little bit big for your face. And your limbs are long and bony. When Daddy carries you up to bed I can't believe how big you look in his arms. But when I creep in your room before I go to sleep and see you lying in bed, a Stitch toy in one hand and your bum hanging out of the duvet. I'm reminded you are still my gorgeous little girl.

Recently you seem torn between being my baby and hurtling towards being a tween. In one moment you may sob for me as you have bumped your knee and want a cuddle. The next you are screaming "IT'S NOT FAIR" and stomp up the stairs before you slam your bedroom door loudly. Sometimes I never quite know which child I am going to be greeted with when you wake from your slumber. Occasionally your moods catch me off guard and I shout at you a bit louder and for a bit longer than I want to. As I'm just as confused as you by what's going on in your head.


Growing up is bringing plenty of wonderful things though. Afternoons lazing in bed chatting about everything and anything. Asking you if you like what I'm wearing and you are always ready to go shopping with me at the drop of the hat. I love sitting with you working on homework projects and now can sing all the songs on Capital FM as you insist we have it blaring on the school run. Sometimes though. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of something I've not seen before.

A tiny bit of embarrassment. You recently asked me to stop screaming on a ride as I was shouting with glee so loudly. Occasionally I cry when I'm really happy and I can see you out of the corner of my eye thinking "here she goes again". You can get cross quickly. And things like me brushing your hair or daring to ask you to brush your teeth can result in a row of epic proportions. Making those sleepless baby days seem like a walk in the park.


What I want you to know is this. Whether you're mortified as I'm trying to floss in the street. Or fuming with me as I'm asking you to wear a school jumper. When I look at you I see a baby. A baby girl that would scream with glee when I walked in the room. Would greet me with a toothy grin each morning when you woke. Those long limbs and huge feet were once tucked up inside me and I'm trying to get used to you distancing yourself a little bit. Whilst I can't promise I won't eternally embarrass you. I can promise I will eternally love you.

Yours forever

Mummy x
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14 comments

  1. This is so beautiful and made me cry. I am just a mere couple of years off my daughter and I going through this and I dread it with all my heart. Thank you for sharing this. I think you’re a wonderful mum xx

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  2. Thank goodness it is not just me! My daughter is a year older than yours. I too face the same daily challenges. It is so difficult sometimes. One of the hardest parts of having children is them growing up.
    Thank you for sharing your story and allowing me to see, I am not alone x

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  3. It’s rare I ever comment on a post although I’m an avid reader- this rang so true and made my eyes leak a bit! Thankyou for posting xx

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  4. That is so beautiful and so true. When they grow up, get to 9 and almost 14, and hormones are raging (on both sides) it is so hard to stay calm. As long as they know we love them, hopefully it will all be ok. Xx

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  5. Emma, you are so right in all of this! What we see are our babies, what we get are hormonal, stroppy, mini adults! They are struggling between being a child & a grown up. We’ve tried the grown up thing & realise childhood is infinitely more appealing!! You’re fab & I totally ‘get’ your feelings as a Mum & delighted shopper of bargains!! Keep on keeping on!!!! ������

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  6. I too have a seven year old so know how you feel. I have decided that this is just another 'phase', a moment which children go through as they grow up and shouldn't be taken personally. We are always telling our children to be true to themselves and be who they want to be, so we have to follow our own advice and just be the best Mummy we can be x

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  7. This made me cry, so beautiful. My little girl is 16 weeks old and I’m always looking at her thinking about the future and wondering if she’s going to be anything like me, because I might just have my hands full lol❤️

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  8. I have 2 older boys now and the 7,8 and 9 year old stage was definately the hardest. (Neither a youngster or a teenager) it does get easier...i promise xxx loving the blogs, vlogs and insta stories x

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  9. Oh sob ������ as a mommy of a little girl growing up too quickly i may have had a little cry. Lovely words��

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  10. This made me cry, also. I have a three year old girl and I hear these words already - they grow up so fast and sometimes these words hurt as Daddy would never have to hear them. Being pregnant with my second child is hard, as she'll no longer be my baby. But thing is, she'll ALWAYS be my baby really and I love her so much it hurts.

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  11. My 8 year girl sounds very similar, I sometimes feel like I'm walking on egg shells to prevent a massive strop! It's hard work this parenting malarky.

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  12. Wow Emma this struck a chord with me, I'm a mummy to a 9 year old girl and a 11 year old transgender son. Me and my youngest are inseparable, and although I'm still very close to my eldest over the last few years I've noticed he has pulled away from me. He knows I love him and i support his choices but I can't help but notice he has slipped away from me a bit. No more fighting his little sister to sit and cuddle me, no more "I love you mummy" or "can I have a huggle please". The little love notes to me have stopped and the need to climb into bed with me has gone. I miss my baby girl and who she was but I love the son I've gained just as much even if he does hide away in his room, tut and roll his eyes when I ask for a cuddle and sigh in despair at me when I call him my baby xxx

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  13. Have never related to a blog post more than this one! My daughter is the same age and could have written every word , thanks for sharing , we are all in this together ! xXx

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  14. This is so beautiful Emma! xx
    Charlie | www.charlieswonderland.co.uk

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