Sunday, 7 October 2018

The Eternal Struggle Of Trying To Juggle

This week I nearly lost it. OK this week I did lose it. And I did that thing where I rant at my husband who looks truly bemused about what on earth is going on. Why is his wife doing the sobby shouty thing he hates so much when all he did was walk into the bedroom with some washing to put away. This week I truly feel that the juggle is real. It appears that the pressures of parenting, rather than alleviating with them getting older, they are getting stronger. There are no books to guide you on the many and varied tasks you are expected to do that fall under 'mum-min'.

This week has included three after school activities, the preparation for trips, harvest festivals, toast money, lunch money, sandwiches for packed lunches on the days she doesn't have lunch money, organising play dates, two days off for a poorly boy, ordering school photos, buying appropriate gifts for a seven year old. My diary is full of endless confusing notes that say things like 'WELLIES' or 'SILLY HAT'. And this is before I have even thought about cleaning my house, working and feeding the humans I love to keep them alive.


My husband and I communicate via texts which romantically include amazon links for things we need to Prime the sh*t out of because we have forgot a deadline. And joint online diary entries which just say 'DO THE SCHOOL RUN AND A REMEMBER GREEN T SHIRT'. I am well and truly overwhelmed and feel like I am drowning with trying to fit everything in. I am torn between thinking that everyone lives their lives a bit frazzled and on edge or it could simply be the fact that I am just a teeny bit crap an organising things.

I have been known to make lists of all the many and varied things I need to do and add a few on the bottom I have already done so at least I can tick them off. Which is not a rational thing to do. I have a Masters in Education, I have my own business, I have forgotten my daughters packed lunch EVERY DAY since she started the new term. So what on earth is the solution? How do I all of a sudden become a Mum who has her sh*t together. How do I juggle making packed lunches, with ordering school photos, whilst answering work emails, having actual conversations with my husband and ordering a new street dance outfit?

I think the answer is. I never will. I will always be on the edge of forgetting something but not quite knowing what it is. I will probably every three months scream at my confused husband "WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO TAKE THEM TO SWIMMING LESSONS". But I suppose we can see it this way. The reason why I am stressed and frazzled is because I love my two beauts so, so very much I want the best for them. I want the little feet I grew in the right shoes for trips. I want their heads to be wearing the silliest hats on silly hat day and I want to make sure I order school photos to keep forever. The struggle of the juggle is now just part of my life. And I'm going to add an alarm in my phone on Mondays, Wednesdays and Friday that will just say "DO NOT FORGET THE F*CKING PACKED LUNCH".
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  1. Emma, this is absolutely amazing! Sometimes, everything just gets too much, and thats okay. ����

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  2. 100% relate to this. Thanks for helping me realise my ‘struggle’ is shared by others!

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    1. Bab we are all struggling. It's NEVER ending! x

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  3. Well, this week I've had two after school activities, a Harvest festival to prepare for, one school trip and associated packed lunch plus a birthday party and then there was the unexpected live TV appearance which involved organising wrap-around childcare. Oh, as I write this I guess I'd better start preparing the youngest's birthday party. Woops, had forgotten about that. Ah, yeah, and I need ot buy someone else a birthday present. No Emma, the admin never ends. You call in Mum-min, but in my house it's dad-min. And there's a lot of it. And no, it isn't always recognised. Such is life hey? I've never done sobby-shouty, but I am tempted to give it a try!

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    1. Do it...it might make you feel a bit better!

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  4. Frazzled and very much on the edge all the time here lol!

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  5. We are all with you Emma sometimes it can all get the better of us.... Its exhausting. Hugs xxx

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  6. so true! I lost it this week everything got on top of me! I even told one twin could not wait till she moved out!(she is 17) I find it even harder now they are older. next week is a new week and got a weekend with family coming up so there will be wine! hope you have a lovely week keep shining x

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  7. I am on the verge of sobby-shouty. I have lists and reminders coming out my ears and yet i still forget at least one major thing a day. But i guess its all worth it when we see their little every morning.

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    1. I am lucky if I only forget one thing! It's NEVER ENDDDDDINNG x

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  8. Ahh. Do you know this was me a couple of years ago. The best thing we did was have number 3. It sorted the sh#t out. It helped make us all take stock and work out the necessary stress from the unnecessary stress. And ... unlike my middle child who seemed to create a lot of the stress and my eldest who was lets face it a bit needy... number 3 is a dream. She has helped the older two frankly get a grip on life. Shes helped me too enormously. And as a couple me and my husband are closer than ever...just a thought ����

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  9. I have been parenting for 21 yearsnow, and i'm still rushingaround last minute , hoping to have Pinterest costumes, then botching something crap together the night before because I haven't done it. Noone has it all together all the time. Maybe an occasional one, but busy mamas don't. Your children have a mum whose worked her socks off to give them a wonderful amazeballs childhood and are blessed. BRUMMY YOU ARE SMASHING MOTHERHOOD!!! (I have mt 6 year old on school dinners, he'd rather have sandwiches, but I know its one less job for me)

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  10. Always good to know you are not the only one who feels like this xx

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